Improbability

‘yes but its not going to happen is it ?’

”and why not then ?”

‘well, I mean to say’

‘well perhaps you may be right’

‘it ain’t gonna happen’

‘improbable really, its nothing, don’t know what you’re worried about’

‘i mean, ‘whats the chances ?”

‘she’ll be right mate’

‘go’on get on with it~’

‘yes but it ain’t you doing it is it ?’

‘so what are you going to wear then ? You know.. smart casual, business casual, cocktail ?

‘what’s wrong with what i’ve got on — right now — i mean ?.

‘well its interesting isn’t it’

‘.. the belt..’

‘it’s buckle is a jade dragon head, a friend of mine in China gave it me’

‘…and the boots ?’

‘Texas Boots, also with a curious design but really soft leather’

‘…but the shirt is strange too..’

‘sheer clear polyester’ totally see through… but somewhat electro-intensive’

and the hat ? Why the hat ?  It’s way past sundown.

‘the hat is keeping my thoughts at bay.  I find that’s important at these events’

‘why ? what’s the worst that could happen, not wearing a hat ?’

‘any random thought might just escape, while i was not thinking for a minute.’

‘that’d be highly improbable.’

‘Maybe so, but even one highly improbable random thought if it escapes unnoticed, it can really mess up a conversation.  People all stop and look at me and say ‘What’s that got to do with anything ?’

‘and the jade bit ? on the belt ?’

‘That’s actually to catch them, ..

.. the random stray thought that mightn’t escape.

‘Yes, this jade dragon, has it’s head open, and can catch any stray thought’.

‘mmm.. not so sure about the belt… it’s not really cocktail is it ?’

‘No… yes it is, she’ll be wearing a bracelet of some kind, right ?.’

‘Yes, ok’

‘it might probably be jade right ?’

‘maybe’

‘So !… I’ll just flash me Green Jade Dragon head belt and offer her the same !.’

A Brumby with Bangles

Tersiiska Bangles

 

I found the first bangles in a dream.  We’d been climbing a steep volcanic mountain, and as we got back down below the snow layer the white melted out into a field of slippery silver bangles.  They had a kind of strange magnetism and as I got down to collect them they would fling away at high speed and land with a tinkle at some distance.  After a while I realized that the more I tried to collect them the more the ground cleared away to the black lava field underneath and in the end… frustration.  It’s not the first dream of frustration felt.  But I did not wake up in frustration but walking, some of the bangles caught on my foot and I managed to collect a few.  After waking I struggled to remember what happened next. I’d no idea what to do with the bangles  I had in my hand, so I’d thrown them  in a drawer in my desk, where all other travel collectibles are. I had no idea who I’d been climbing with either.  She’d been there climbing too but seemingly not interested in the bangles but wanted to get into the white zone at the top of the mountain. Did she come down ? No idea ? but I know when I woke I was in my room in my hotel nowhere near snow and out in the outback, far from any mountain.  But I opened the drawer and there they were, the bangles.

She’d been dreaming of riding a wild brumby in the snow country down through the rafts of snowgums, down to the creek.  The snow gums white trunks flashed by. The trees parted as the horse charged through them, shifting aside and springing back in time with the gallop. But then she felt as though falling and the ground rising up to become snow and white and cool.

As I got dressed I saw that the hotel had some prints of the snow country on the wall.  Memories of Clancy of the Overflow perhaps.  Hotel decor was low cost and somewhat stereotyped.   I imagined that all other rooms in the hotel had similar prints.  I opened the door and the light from my room streamed into the darkened corridor.

“What are you doing here ?” I asked on leaving my room.  There in the darkened cool corridor was a woman wearing the bangles I’d put in my drawer.

“What are you doing here ?” She asked with some affront. She looked past me into my room and her expression changed.  I turned around and saw she’d been looking at the print on the wall.  The one with the horses and snowgums.

“I’ve opened the door on my dream reality of bangles” I said.

“That’s funny – there is my brumby dream on your wall” She said.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Photo Courtesy Tersiiska / Flickr / Bangles

related but interesting history gemaffair

Time passing a happy moment in the square

Chris Smith - Le Halles St Claire Grenoble

There’s the faint sound of the clock tick being drowned by the bubbling in the fountain. Apart from that minor motion it had been quiet that morning in the square.   Later the market had opened as normal and fast sales of fish cheese ham wine meats olives and all sorts of produce got revving up throughout the day.  That morning too, a local couple had gone to work in the midst of an argument. He to his office some miles from the square and she to her own boutique just a short walk away. She’d stormed out of the house and caught a bus into town instead of normally getting dropped off by her husband.  On the strength of that, he decided to get in his new convertible and get to the office car park early.

When the offices closed for the day, she walked down to the market having calmed a little and waited for her husband to pick her up.  Normal time being 6:30pm in winter as it was.  As she sat by the fountain and thought through the day she somehow regretted being so impetuous with the email she’d sent that afternoon.  ‘How dare he’ … ‘just go buy a sports car like that’ .. who was he trying to impress ?’. she thought.  It was cold on the fountain step outside the hall and when the normal time ticked past she felt she should probably give him another chance.

His nice fast black car slowed a little as it drove through the square about an hour later.  Looking out the window he saw her there waiting. ‘Stupid’ he thought and sped off at a great rate.

For some reason possibly the effect of the fountain and the clock she felt happy.  If he came back around the block, well then good.  If he didn’t well then good for that too and begone with the car.

A Lock for Distraction

The sun is waking us both up earlier.  Getting out of bed this morning was easier with the temperatures warming up. With the extra time I decided that enough with procrastination, I would venture out into the bush, brave the early morning spiders on the path and head up to the summit of the hill.  It should be a good walk and climb and I’d be back about midday.

Yet how many times had i put off the climb, always one imagined rationale after another.  Mentioned in bars or at  the dinner table, being too busy or too many conference calls.  So definitely glad to be making it after all that time not making it. Actually I had never been before and that momentary fear of the unknown had frustrated my minor ambitions in the past.

 

As i neared the summit however – fork in the path led off slightly down and around to the southern darker side of the mountain.  The bush got thicker and darker even mid morning and a bit of scrambling and blackberry bashing ensued to get to get along and see how it ended up.  As it happened I came across a bush cabin in the path, probably 50 years old, made of shingles of stringybark and crudely cut.  It had a door and a window and a fireplace outside in a small clearing leading up to the sky.  It was quiet when I stopped and looked around.  Couldn’t see anyone.  No birds.  Just me creeping along the path in a kind of frightened way.

The door had an ancient roman style lock on iTersiiska lockt, far older than the cabin itself obviously.  We’ed only been in the country 200 years, and the lock was older than that no doubt.  It was in fact locked, so the bolt would not pull back.  I tried to see through the window but the reflection on the glass was too bright for me to see clearly in. Calling out though just echoed through the bush with a kind of no-one-else-here sound.  Creepy.

Well this was not getting me to the summit so I turned back, but as I got back to the main ascent path, suddenly had a fit of curiosity and ventured down the mountain – not up.

As I walked down the plan came to mind.  I would get a portable saw, strong enough to cut through the metal of the lock to open the door and just see what was inside. 

Down in the town I found just what i needed and started lugging it back up the mountain in my backpack.  My wife called up on my cell phone:-

‘Where are you ?’

‘Just on the way back up the mountain honey,…. I’ve come across an old cabin and just want to try to get in and take a look’.

‘Ok well don’t be all day !.  I’m expecting you home this afternoon’ – she said.. click.

I quickened my steps up, breathing hard carrying the extra weight of the saw.  Finally made it back to the cabin.  Went up to the door and  thought hard about the destruction of the lock.  It was obviously an old lock.  How could I saw it through and then what would it be worth.  Wouldn’t that also be kind of break and enter ? A terrible fit of conscience got me and I just couldn’t do it.  I sat down wondering what I’d do to pick the lock.. Who would even know how it operated.  Just a simple hole in the outside of some casting.

Time for a drink perhaps.  I sat down drinking fresh water from the walking flask and wondering for a while.  How to get into the cabin ? How to pick the lock ? How not to break the lock or break the door or break the window…and would I even make it up to the summit – which was my real objective after all.  Who would put such an ancient lock on such a bush cabin.  Had anyone even been inside it inside the last half century ?.

I got up and left again, this time running out of time, I went down the mountain at a loss and returned home.

 

 

Photo courtesy of Tersiiska on Flickr – all copy rights reserved.